For a variety of reasons, today did not follow the scheduled plans, and so I am lost and confused. I find that I am very dependent on my routine, or at least my plans. When they are changed I lose my sense of direction- I don’t know what to do, or when, and nothing gets accomplished (even important things) and I don’t know what to do with the children and feel like my day has been wasted.
It is good, though, because so much of my life is hinged upon accomplishing tasks, following my neat little schedule, and protecting myself from feeling useless or unprepared. These unfocused days shake that up a bit: I find myself wondering what really is important; why do I do the things I normally do; what is the purpose behind it all anyway? My usual routine guides me through my days without having to address these perplexing questions.
But I anxiously await the normalcy of tonight’s scheduled events…
About Me
- Phvern
- ONSL, United States
- 33 yr. old chunky mother of 4, sometimes 5, living in the inner-city. Homeschooling 4 lovely children. Married for thirteen years to David, of equally varied interests and occupations. I drink too much coffee and wish I had more chocolate at my disposal. My goals in life include writing exceptionally good fantasy stories, owning a coffeehouse, and traveling to lots of interesting places. Also into BBC comedy and 19th century literature.
Napoleon and Josephine?
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